I don’t know where to begin with this, I would normally start with some kind of a quote or a song lyric. But, this is a different situation so I decided to speak directly from the heart with this. When speaking from the heart you tend to forget to come write or think in common english, words become misplaced, out of order, or rambling happens.
I guess I should start getting to the point of this, which I will its just gathering the energy to open old wounds is some tuff shit. Thinking back on those nights you spent laid in his bed wrapped up in each others arms forgetting the world around you with the sound of some Disney playing in the background. That was pure heaven for me. Also playing video games naked and just being two guys crazy for each other. That was my escape from reality I had with you.
But now, I guess the words you spoke me while we were both naked in your bed, while we watched fireworks and a mouse fighting off evil villains was just practice for him. Cause its not me whose in your bed anymore, its not me playing video games naked with you or watching a Disney movie with you. I’ll just fade away to become nothing more than a memory to you. But I’ll carry the scars of the damage you did to me for a while now.
I’m just gonna sit here and lick my cuts like I have many times in the past cause you aren’t the first to damage my heart or my dreams of being with someone. You’re just making me a lot stronger than I was before. So, as we both go to bed tonight I hope I run through your mind while you lay next to him and when you wake up expecting to see me…what you will see is someone who isn’t me cause I’m across the hall in your roommates bed cause he is more of a man than you will ever be.